The Fireman
Why do people hide from what they know will help them? Why do people get stuck in their ways? The thing that’s best for them appears in the form of a threat. But no, this isn’t the case for the healthy man. The healthy man, the free man, has learned to overcome this feeling. Nothing can threaten him, nothing can scare him.
But what do I do…? I keep working at the fire department. All day long, putting out fires, shooting the breeze with the guys. We don’t eat good. We’re big guys, so we eat a lot, but none of it’s healthy. Who knows what kind of health problems we’re already harboring. Who knows when it’ll be until one of us goes to the doctor’s for a checkup.
I’m not free… and many, many are like me. I can’t overcome it… why? I would never call it depression. I don’t believe in mental illness. Only the darkening of the mind and soul. No problem is difficult to solve. Pathologies are manmade. Tragedy is just man setting his own trap. It’s far from our natural state. I can only pray to be truly free… I can see what it means to be free, and sometimes I feel like I’m almost a Free Man; sometimes in prayer I would even say I am. But in life the feeling always leave me. The manmade world wins out.
I’m a pretty tough guy though especially for being a firefighter.